Well after 3 weeks in hospital and no improvement, met with the surgeons yesterday and that's the decision I need to make over the weekend. I'm not going to lie the thought of surgery petrifies me.
I was in a similar position. Hospital for 3 weeks, lost 20kg and lots of blood. I think I managed 1 meal and some snacks in the last week before surgery. Steroids stopped working and not enough time for biologics to do their thing.
I was genuinely terrified of surgery but honestly, from the moment I woke up after surgery, I already felt better. Yes it was quite painful but nothing compared to going to the toilet 20 times a day with barely any strength and a drip stand that needed dragging with me each time.
The first couple of months after surgery was a big transition phase but once you find a bag that suits you and you regain some strength, I found it much better than UC. Not having to worry about needing the toilet urgently is such a novelty that will never wear off.
I still eat what I want and do everything I could do before, plus more. It hasn't stopped me in any way.
If you ever need to chat or want any advice, feel free to reach out. There's also loads of good groups and people on social media, which I found massively helpful and still do.