I am sorry that you feel that way Bengaboy but if I may, I would like to put my two pence worth into this thread.
 Firstly, you are about to embark on a career for which I am envious. I could not join HM Armed Forces when I was 17 due to eye sight restrictions and it is still a regret to this day. There is not a lot I wouldn't swap to trade places with you.
 Secondly, you are only 18 years old. There is no woman on this earth that is worth you dragging your life down to a grinding halt for. There is no easy way to say this other than, forget her and take your new opportunity by the ********. One door has closed and another has opened.
 Thirdly, have a song.