more update:
I cant cancel the hotel booking either now apparantly so have decided to take my best mate and have managed to change the room type to a twin, only problem is she is going to be there a few days after me so ill see her for like a week and a half at the same hotel.
long story why we broke up but i think it was for the best in the end even though I do still love her and prob will always but to be honest we werent made for each other and i realise that now. were not really talking at the moment, the odd text message. do you think i should tell her im going?
thanks