Yeah I've felt this way before, so insecure. Even looking in the mirror I can't seem to find myself. I'm not sure what it's like With You, but I think it comes down to a situation when you're tired of being what others want you to be, you're feeling so faithless and lost under the surface. You don't know what they're expecting of you, put under the pressure of walking in their shoes. It's like every step that you take is another mistake to them! You've become so numb you can't even feel can't feel them there, you've become become so tired but so much more aware. While becoming this all you want to do is be more like you and be less like them. Can't they see that they're smothering you? Holding too tightly, they must be afraid to lose control, and everything that they thought you would be has fallen apart right in front of them. Like I said before, every step that you take is another mistake to them, and every second you waste is more than you can take. The worst part is that you know you may end up failing too, but you know they were just like you with someone disappointed in them. If it were me, well I don't know if I could take it anymore, saying all the things I've said before. Sorry if none of the words made any sense, I like to think I'm never wrong but I just want to share what I've been through.
