hehe I did wonder if it was a bit strong after I posted ..
You'll find yourself feeling up and down at random for a while. That's all fine and good. As you seem to have a handle on what to do when you feel down, I'll say no more about it, other than do something to distract yourself from the worst of it, less time to dwell on it and all that. You'll no doubt bore the stuffing out of your mates talking about it, but if they're proper mates they won't mind one bit
You're bound to have issues with sleep, that's ok too. Personally I find decent food and moderate exercise help with that (break out the weights and get in shape or whatever).
For the first couple of months after mine left, I slept on the sofa because I was not comfortable sleeping in 'our' bed... hehe I look back and smile about that now, your mind can make you do some funny things at times
I don't think I had an unbroken nights sleep in all of the time on the sofa lol.About the financial stuff: joint interests are always a pain in the backside at times like this. I suggest you get your side of things sorted asap. That way you'll feel like you are the one who is in control of what happens and when, as opposed to you simply reacting to her decisions. It might not sound like much, but taking the initiative will make your immediate future less uncertain.
And some of what you need for yourself right now is a little certainty - this is a good way to engineer this for yourself.
As for 'THE BIG QUESTION....' I understand your motivation for asking it; I spent a lot of time trying to understand what happened to 'us' and the reasons behind it. Take my advice and try to leave it alone. You will never get a straight answer from her and asking will only make her angry - perhaps enough to say something more hurtful in order that she can feel like she's unburdening herself of you. This comes back to what I said about 'talking things over'.
Don't fall into the trap of asking 'why?' - it's very important you don't get hung up on this. If you're questioning everything all the time you will loose the initiative, and the self respect that comes with it, to an impossible task.
We all think we need somebody, and it's great when we do have someone, but it's not all there is. Find your own way for yourself, there's plenty of good advice, here and elsewhere, before you know it you'll be wondering what all the fuss was about
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. I also bought a few bits of new clothing (despite not being a fan of expensive clothes) and had my first gym workout in a year. Busy making fajitas as my mate and his girlfriend invited themselves over for dinner and Jenga tonight.
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