I'd say monetise the videos. Open a business account said business only uses the money to break even on expenses. You never pay yourself a wage.
For example if you need to pay the pro rata leccy bill of said business that's okay.
If said business needs more hardware or storage then that is okay.
You can't just pay yourself £500 to do what you want as that is then classed as income.
You can legally get the money from YouTube to pay for everything directly contributing to its costs and it not be classed as income.
I thank you for your advice Psycho but to put it simply you have absolutely no idea what you are suggesting in this circumstance, let me explain and no offense meant
Yes i can accept donations, yes they are all flagged to keep the channel going and pay for expenses but what you are suggesting is for someone categorically classed as unable to work or run a business "starts a business"
And it seems to me Psycho you didn't even read the part about anything like what you are suggesting would pile masses of stress and red flags for my brain on to an already "just managing to not go down really bad paths each day"
Let explain simply what bad paths are and how if I start down one that day is wrecked and I could have major issues, each morning I have 5-10 seconds from the moment I wake to turn on my audible audio book and keep my brain from going down a bad path, bad paths = didnt save wife, pc could die today, storage could run out, I could fall down the stairs and no one would find me for about a week, will the shower break, will the floor in the bathroom give way and I will hit the kitchen floor snapping the bones of my legs and die slowly alone, will my pc catch fire and kill me tonight, what will happen to my dogs if I choke on sick and die in my sleep tonight.....
Now while everyone has thoughts like these now and then if my brain goes down this path no amount of rational thinking or logic or sensible will stop my head from fully going down that path.
And your suggestion is I add in a further level of "omg my latest video didn't get enough likes, omg I said something in my videos that got it demonitized which means I can't pay for an upgrade which means my channel could fail which means I could end up failing at everything.
Let me make something absolutely clear, my own consultants see it as a ******* miracle I am able to functioning daily and use technology to keep me going without being heavily medicated and or in long term hospital stay.
Monetizing my channel, or even setting it up as a business would bring a level of disaster potential because my brain doesn't work on logical or rational.