My brain has been in overdrive tonight :/
Been mulling over something my mum said when I saw her at the weekend. (I guess because it was upsetting to hear but also the book I'm currently reading touches on a very similar topic)
To give some context...We somehow got onto the subject of when my dad died and she went to the hospital whereas I chose to stay home. She said that she wouldn't have let me see him like that, she didn't want me to (her thinking this before she even saw how the nurses had left him)
I then said I'm glad I got to see him in the funeral home and how I had tried to get a hold of my oldest sister to find out if she was going to go as well. She had ignored my messages and all I had was my brother in law saying constantly how hard my sister was taking his death (like the rest of us weren't struggling either

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After I said this my mum turned around and said "your sister was always close with your dad, if it had been me I don't think she would have been bothered"
It breaks my heart that my mum thinks my sister feels this way but I'm now also wondering if it's because my brother in law is often saying that my sister thinks we don't care about her. Obviously it's never come from the horses mouth but he so often says it, maybe it's making my mum think this way
On that note I'm gonna take my overactive brain to bed lol