That's twice you've asked now, so I'm going to assume you're genuinely struggling to comprehend the point I'm trying to make. Let's try an analogy.
You work a hard job, long hours, but good money. You don't "love" your job, but it's OK and at least it has its recompenses (good wages, decent work environment). You're given an IOU for holidays owed - the company's busy so they can spare you sometime in the next few months.
You get the holiday time, and all's fine. Suddenly, you realise that as great your holiday (life) is at the moment, soon you'll have to go back to work (i.e. die). Work = not bad, good money etc remember, but you'd much rather be on paid holidays (alive)...
From my perspective, I don't care or worry about going back to work when the time is due. However I won't be looking at ways to end my paid holidays early so I can
rush into work. Nor will I be happy if someone says "Hey I'm calling you back to work tomorrow", when I know I have a week left on my allowance, fully paid.
Likewise with life and death. While I have it I'll live it to the fullest of my ability. I'm always mindful of the inevitability of death, and I'll certainly take any chance I can to stave it off (fighting executioners, taking antibiotics if I get TB etc lol). However once that work week rolls around on the calendar, and it really is time, I won't begrudge it nor fear it. I'll just accept it as it is.
If you can't understand, I'm not sure how much more I can try to explain without tying us up in knots. When it's my time, I'll be happy with that and have zero cares about the dying thing. Meantime I'm in no rush, it doesn't mean I'm suicidal and any chance I get to continue living, I'll take.