Thanks one and all for the words of support - I'd better sign up to the wagon thread I guess
Had another test today - met up with my dad and went for lunch at a pub. I'd usually have a couple of pints, well this time I stuck with coke again! I'm so pleased with that
The last few times I've stopped for a while it's got to the point where I think "Just a beer or two tonight, that'll be fine" and before I know it I'm back up to stupid amounts. I just can't drink in moderation
I'm taking each day as it comes, but one of the hard physical parts is over. Just have a quick google about the very real dangers of going cold turkey from high alcohol dependence. It's not fun and can be dangerous, but that part is subsiding thank goodness. Big thank to my better half for looking after me.
I waited two weeks before posting as getting through that physical stuff means if I start drinking again and stop I have to go through it all again.
With regards the addiction, it's hard to explain. I feel like there's a huge part of my life missing. When I thought about stopping it was like "But how can I NOT drink? It doesn't make sense". Stupid really.
I don't have long term goals - I'm not sure I can ever "just have a beer or two" so it may be that alcohol is completely off limits from now on. This in some ways makes me sad - I'll miss the Norwich Beer Festival (been every year since I was 16!) and I'll feel self concious at parties (drinking at the levels I was means that if I really put my mind to it I could put away insane amounts
) as mates know I like a drink.
Very few people know of my drink problem - my missus and you lot. I'd feel so embarrassed if my mates/family knew. For the short term I'm saying that because my missus can't drink I'm joining her for moral support - after our son is born, I'm not sure how to tackle it, but that's 4 months away yet.
I'm planing on staying alcohol free for a long, long time - all of your support is really appreciated.
If you're wanting to cut down or give up or you think you have a drink issue, please post in here or the On The Wagon thread and we can all help each other.
Long ramble over, but thank you for letting me get some stuff out of my head