Thanks for the kind words guys. Things are getting slightly better, can laugh and such now. Still in a bit of a daze but i've accepted this reality though it'll take a while yet to fully process..
Lost my good lady last Tuesday week, funeral tomorrow, this is my first experience of someone close to me passing. I feel that I have not really accepted it yet, I have certainly teared up on occasions but I have not had a full blown cry which I feel I need. So in some small way I can relate to what you are going through, though grief is so personal and how we deal with it individual.
I shall probably go and get ****** on my own tomorrow after the funeral, for the first time in years, hopefully have a good weep and then try to manage the loneliness which is difficult when a person you have shared 35 years is no longer around.
All I can do is offer my sincere condolences for the loss of your dad.
Loss of parents is one of the few things that genuinely fills me with dread. Not sure how I'd cope, if at all. In many ways I fear it more than my own death.Never thought i'd be one making this sort of thread.. My dad passed last month on the 26th of heart failure at 66, suddenly and with little warning, he had a few shortness of breaths and little chest pains over the last year but nothing he felt the need to get checked. Feeling like my world caved in, i'm expecting a little one in October and i'm trying to feel enthusiasm and be happy with my wife etc.. but it all feels empty now. People sort of expect me to take it on the chin as a 36 yr old man but by god sometimes i wail and cry... Does this immense pain ease?
I definitely fear my mums death more than my own. I’m not that close to my dad, but it will still hurt when I lose him. He’s had cancer recently, but the stubborn old git beat it fairly easily.Loss of parents is one of the few things that genuinely fills me with dread. Not sure how I'd cope, if at all. In many ways I fear it more than my own death.
Be assured many of us can relate to you right now. And I'm sorry to hear of your suffering.