Sleep paralysis is one of the most distressing things. I’ve almost got used to it now but I do get them where I can’t escape from it for what feels like extended periods, generally 30-60 seconds and they are by far the worse. If I am by myself it takes a lot longer to wake up from them, if my fiance is with me she just needs to touch me and I’m out of it.
The worst ones are when I get out of the paralysis, then fall straight back in to another; which is what happened last night. In those occasions I’m afraid to go back to sleep again. About a month ago it happened four times in one night, in the end it made me frankly so upset I was petrified to go back to sleep.
This has been happening since I was a teenager but back then it only happened once or twice a year. As I’ve got older it now happens almost every night or every other night if I’m lucky.
I started recording them last year to see what was going on as I was waking up covered in scratches. Turns out I am scratching myself, thrashing around and moaning/shouting while in the paralysis and trying to wake myself out of it.
Ironically it makes me not want to sleep, so I stay up later, but staying up later makes me more likely to have them…