Did you talk to her in the end?
Saw your comment a few days after you posted, but didnt really feel like replying at the time
I didn't, no.
Though I did actually had a heart to heart with her a few months before that. I explained I felt my drinking was spiralling out of control etc. I said I would quit drinking for a month (went 35 days as I was ill with a cold at the end). My drinking has got better since then, but I'm aware I have to kind of force it not to be crazy.
She comments every now and then abut how I barely drink anymore, and I juts think shes deluded, because I still drink more than most people. Meh, shes a keeper, I defiantly need to make sure I don't loose her over this.
As things stand now. I'm in a good place. I drink maybe twice a week. I dont buy more alcohol than I want to consume at one time, and I try and sip my drinks lol. I generally drink a 4 pack of stella, sometimes supplemented by and extra 500ml bottle of ale. I think this is the kind of drunk most people aim for? I dont know, it feels OK though I guess, and nothing crazy happens when I drink that much which is real nice.
maybe once a month or so things in my head will get a bit crazy with stress and what have you, and I'll drink fairly hard. I try and keep it to say 8 cans absolute max.
I've not been blackout drunk since my last post though, I've always remembered my last drink and going to bed etc.
I'm aware eventually I'll have to stop for good, but ATM, I'm doing a good job of "keeping it under control" (not letting it control me too much) so I'm not really feeling the negatives so not really feeling the need to quit.
Sorry you guys have to listen to my ramblings lol. But whatever, I'm spilling my heart out.
Oh, and Brenn Come on man! you really need to see what help is available to you and take full advantage of it, because otherwise its going to kill you man

And none of us want that to happen...
The
**** you have been through and still that isnt enough to stop you? what will it take?