Did you make a decision what you're going to do next? I'm not sure how long it took you to recover, but it took me 2 years to fully recover, well to 95% at best... Few months down the line, one of my mates bought a bike, I went over and test rode it on a country road outside his house. At that point, I forgot that feeling, this has re-ignited that fire that nearly went out. Another 2 years passed and I won a classic bike on auction, part of the reason was to make it easier for my family, it was a good little project that I could test drive, only went out on it 2-3 times and sold it, not my cuppa of tea. Another 2-3 years passed and I jumped on a CRF300M in Thailand, rode it in Rush Hour traffic, regretted that decision as soon, as I sat on it, but after we left the city and ended up on the loop all the bad thoughts faded away.
I do feel the subconsciously there's trauma, even today during my Mod2, 3 cars pulled out on me and 1 van went into my lane because he was playing with his phone, normally those things would be brushed off 5 min later. But now, especially after the accident I had, I do see it has a bigger impact and takes longer to brush off... I think, the best way would be to jump on a bike, ride it and make the call if the risk is worth it at the end of the day to you. Some people just hang up the boots, because there are things that they enjoy/value more (weirdos, right?
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At this point, if you are still waiting for someone to say it'll be as safe, as a car, it won't no matter how much training you do and how good of a rider you're. End of rant lol