Cheers. Power numbers creeping up over the years but not sure how much further i can go. The constant training and then battling finding the time to recover really creates a wedge in spending quality family time and just time enjoying not being at work. Its like an Arms race in the amateur scene, 350 + FTP's are common place in many riders now 2nd cat and above, many 1st and Elite riders have WT pro rider numbers its getting obscene !! I struggle to compete against 20 year old's who can spend 2 months off season in Calpe and are able to spend post race sleeping on the couch looked after by mum...as opposed to me having to cut the grass and go out for park walks with my 5 and 1 year old. The constant feeling of fatigue really starts becoming a wear, especially when results aren't showing for the hard work, you spend so much time worrying about how you are performing that everything else becomes secondary...its almost like an addiction !!
Sometimes I really just want to let it all go, clear my race calender and just enjoy the bike...but then i realise i wont be able to ride with my mates (its inevitable that friends become the people you spend most of your off time with...training partners) and its hard to accept the hard work to get to the current level of fitness will be lost...without doing the harder work to get it back again.
Warning to all...don't chase numbers, chase enjoyment