When I quit I tried to stop there and then, but I was gettign narky so whe nI got really peeved, I decided that I must have one... I sneaked into my LAN Room away from the missus and said that I needed to be alone and she knew I had just had a puff.
I had 2 on day 1, 2 on day 2, 1 on day 3 and that was it.
I had one pull just to wipe the initial crave off, and it only half helped cos all I wanted to do was to chugg away at the rest of i, but I decided no... I have to do it.
And I did.
So, stopping all of a sudden wasnt really doing it for me, decided to cut down gradually and I did just that but very quickly.
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Smoking ban.
Well, the other day was the kids sports day in school and we all went to the local park and under the shelter was a woman smoking. Now I have to be honest, but last year that could have been me, but I overheard a couple just behind me talking about it, I looked over and I saw her and I have to agree, that it looked so bloody awful that I was actually genuinely disgusted myself. Ok, so the ban has come about, and she was going against the ban, and that got to me, but the main thign was that she was in a school sports arena... Sure it was outside but it was under a roof and in the middle of the parents and some kids so its was simply not acceptable but there she was!
So, looking at thigns from the other side of the fence, I can see now why they say that ex-smokers are the worst, because its true.
I see now why people look at me in disgust because it is a habit and you do stink... You can smell a smoker from a good few feet away even when they are not smoking!
Im glad im out of that trap, cos you really do think you can quit... Until you try... And then you know you are actually addicted