Road to the BNBF Welsh Qualifiers 2011 - Progess Journal

No didn't make it :( had to get something done in the morning so decided to go in the evening instead, but by the time it got to leaving, I was just so tired that I didn't go

I'm a bit gutted really, as I really wanted to go, for the day and to see how it all goes down as that would definitely be useful. Would have been great to meet you two as well. But I'm sure I'll get that pleasure at the Welsh :)
 
So today was a good day. Felt full of energy and in good spirits

First day on new portion sizes, and well that's not so good. I'm so frickin' hungry. All the time!! You should see me when food comes round. I get it ready in front of me and sit there watching the clock until it's bang on eat time (yep I'm that strict lol), then it's like when they throw meat into the lions cage, I'm like an animal. But before I know it, it's finished and I'm still so hungry :(

On a more positive note, everything is now bought/ordered/booked ready for the show so I'm properly ready to go. This time last week, 4 weeks didn't feel long enough and I wanted a little longer, now 3 weeks seems so long and I just want to get on stage
 
Awesome awesome awesome!

Thank you so much mate, that's hugely helpful :)

Regarding tan, only thing I'm worried about with it is putting it on, my girlfriends going to be doing it for me, but I'm hoping that it's really not that difficult a task. Putting it on, is it really something you can mess up? Or as long as you take your time is it pretty straight forward?
 
I got the recommended Show Off tan that they send you the link too in the BNBF welcome pack.

That has made me feel so much better. I was worried it would only be enough for a couple of coats at most
 
I think I'll do as you recommended and go for a base coat Friday and then one the next evening, then one on the morning of the show. So things like the oil/sheen or tan enhancer as it's called in the stuff I got, do the helpers have to do that for you before you go on stage? That's kind of a relief as at least I know it will get done properly

Definitely be good to meet up on the day mate, you've been an amazing help so far already though :)
 
Well down to 71.4kg now, so I should hit the target weight by end of the week, which means anything I lose after that is going to be good room for me to carb up on the day

My energy is ridiculous at the moment though, I've had to book the next 2 weeks off work as I just can't stay awake at the moment, and it's only going to get worse as my carbs and portions go down even more.
I had a bit of a scare as well when, well, I don't know what happened but I just sort of collapsed at home, didn't black out or wasn't out for any length of time or anything, just fell over in a heap for no apparent reason, hasn't happened before and luckily hasn't happened since
 
Will do Desmo, I'm going to rest a lot but make sure I also get a lot of things done so I'm not just sat around all day

Worst thing is not being able to sleep at the moment, takes me ages to finally get to sleep, go to bed at 9 and then finally fall asleep around midnight, then constantly wake up throughout the night :(
 
Today has been a very strange day. All day I've felt knackered, motivated and positive but knackered. Nothing strange there, but people have started being very negative around me. Quite a few people urging me to quit based on how I am at work.

It got massively frustrating after hearing it from several people in short succession. Left work as normal feeling very odd, walked into my room, collapsed on to my bed, then out of nowhere I just burst into tears. I haven't cried in ages, and it just came about out the blue. And I couldn't stop for about 10 minutes. And I must admit, in those 10 minutes I'd quit mentally, and was starting to think what people had been saying was maybe true.

I eventually cried myself out and had a nap, woke up feeling better. Watched Ronnie Coleman - Relentless and ate my food and feeling better. I know I'm not going to quit and Im more focused than ever, but that wasn't a nice 10 minutes for me

I'm not fishing for sympathy or encouragement, just this has almost become a journal for mental as well as physical progress so thought I'd leave it here
 
Cheers guys, as always, your words are too kind :)

Desmo, I totally understand why people are like it. I am a miserable **** these days, I have the shortest temper in the world and I am finding myself very impatient with people and very rude sometimes to the point it shocks me and I have to immediately apologise. It's another reason I booked 2 weeks off work as I just don't want to damage my reputation around here by people thinking I'm always moody/tired. Because a lot of people don't know what I'm doing so just think that's how I am

I am the luckiest guy in the world with my girlfriend though as I feel so sorry for her, I try to save my good moods for her but I'm just so tired all the time and I am cranky sometimes, but she has been so understanding and so patient with me. She does whatever she can to help and she has played a massive part in keeping me going, and it breaks my heart that it's so one sided at the moment as I just don't have the energy/time to do all the things I want too to repay her. I'm booking us a holiday away though as soon as I know what's happening and I'm going to spoil her rotten

But yeah, people have a right to be annoyed at me but to tell me to quit is not on, and I would never tell people to quit on there dreams or ambitions.
 
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Excuse the photo, I look so tired because I took it as I woke up. Just lol at the first photo :( Photos just don't do me justice at the moment, without blowing my own trumpet, the crap lighting always makes me look so soft, the gym lights are much better for photos but it's getting photos taken there without looking like a ****
 
Yeah abs without tensing is nice :D that was the first real sign I knew I was coming in right

Legs look ok at the moment, I hold a lot of water on my legs, and with cardio 2 hours a day 7 days a week, they never really get much time to rest. But I stop cardio and leg activity the Tuesday before the show to let them rest and make them properly come through. I also have to lie with my legs elevated a lot towards the show to flush the water out of them
 
I know very little about it other than the basics so far. We're sort of taking it a week at a time right now. But I'll be having a big chat before hand and probably every day that week to make sure it's nailed.

He may be coming to the show too :)
 
I'm loving my time off work already. Just going through posing practise with Wimbledon on in the background. Right now at work I'd be stressed as hell already, here, chilled and relaxed :)

Diets changed this week again, 3 rice meals down to 2, so:

7:30am - 55g oats, 30g whey
10am - 28g rice, 170g chicken
12pm - 28g rice, 110g chicken
2pm - 30g recovery xs, 30g whey
4.30pm - salad, 110g chicken
7pm - 250g white fish, salad
9pm - 40g bedtime extreme
 
Thanks mate

Lost 27.2kg now. Around 4 1/2 stone. Lifts haven't dropped at all, I haven't lost any strength that I've noticed which has been great
 
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I supplement a lot with Omega 3 caps as well as using Good Oil (it's actually called that, highly recommended by the way, expensive but good) on all my salads and rice. So I still get a fair bit of fats :)
 
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