Just fell under 78kg
Abs are very visible now and I have a lot of definition on my upper back that I never had before
It's all coming along nicely now, falling into place very quickly. Start Mitotropin on Monday so hopefully that boosts progress even further
One thing I will vent about though, and sorry you guys get this, but you'll understand why I'm saying it on here and not to "real folk". Well since I've started this, even in my off season, I've never felt supported by people who matter, family and friends. The people that do believe I'm doing it, just seem like they'd rather I didn't.
It was a factor in my relationship ending with my ex, as she was massively against it even though she'd never admit it. My current girlfriend says she supports me and is behind me, but I never really feel like she is, I always feel like I'm a burden to her or that deep down she resents me for doing it. Last night she said "You're always so sleepy because of it" and ended up going home in a grump. Yes, because I'm doing 4 hours of weights a week and 7 hours of cardio, I'm not going to be a bundle of energy in the evenings
People at work, half the time I get the feeling they're just being polite and don't actually believe me, and the one's that do just think it's weird and are willing to make no effort to understand why I have to eat at certain times, or certain foods, just mocking. I don't mind this so much as office banter is always welcome just I know there is a serious undertone to it as well
My family, well my nan just moans about my diet and how unhealthy it is, and doesn't care about the contest, and my dad, well again, he claims to support me, but he doesn't. He's hinted several times it's selfish what I'm doing because of how it affects others, and he says he wants me to do well, but I'm really not feeling any encouragement
I know what I'm doing is selfish, unfortunately, you have to be selfish to do well, you have to sacrifice a few things. And yes I have to prioritise a few things differently, for food and the gym, but I've always made it clear this is a one time thing for me which is why I'm making sure it's done 100% with no shortcuts or cheating
Sorry to rant guys, just it's getting very hard for me, I am tired 24/7 at the moment, I do feel low on energy and I'm constantly hungry. I'm questioning a lot of the time whether it's worth it or whether or not to just stop, and not having any encouragement or support from people around me only makes this worse. I'm not asking for people to go out their way and give me constant praise and over the top support, but just an acknowledgement that my body is improving or that I'm doing a good job. Or that it will all be worth it.
But I get nothing, and it's really upsetting
You guys are the only ones that give me any sort of positive feedback and encouragement, so thank you
