Sigh.
OK, so the guy from "The Crazy" Part I has actually disappeared off the face of the Earth. This is probably a good thing, him being older than me and somewhat of a settled grown-up man, and he wasn't really all that attractive anyway...
So what is Sara now going to waffle about? Closure and all that stuff.
So there was a guy I spent a lot of last year drooling over. A big Scot hailing from near Edinburgh way (but who now lives an hour away from me). Eventually I got the guts to make it clear I liked him, and it came to pass that he wasn't interested - so FINALLY I was able to go "Oh, OK", scrub him from the 'potentials' list and carry on. Actually quite easy to do once you know for sure.
So last week I was back with the gang that includes him (mates from old workplace), had a brilliant week skiing in the Alps, playing cards and being merry, and suddenly he was much more friendly that he'd ever been before. Prolonged eye-contact, asking interested questions about the things I get up to and enjoy doing, discussing future plans and frustrations with life, laughing at all my awful jokes and quips, talking about visiting Bristol, leaving 'x's at the end of his text messages, taking an unusually high number of pictures of me (+ scenery), choosing to sit next to me almost every time (group of 11)...
All minor stuff really but rather a change from before. It should probably be noted that I've lost nearly two stone since I last saw him.
So now, he's clawed his way up to the top of the list, and thrown me for six, and now we're back in different towns again and instead of seeing him daily it's going to be not for a while now (no plans), and he's not replied to the email (that he asked me to send!), and so it's all gone quiet again and the rather nice experience of - well, not really flirting - but the almost-knowing looks we were giving each other and shy smiles and in-jokes and silly laughter.... has disappeared, and I'm back to that almost /fear/ that I'm going to muck it all up somehow.
And to be honest, with my track record, Sod's Law is strong with me.
Logical-Sara is very clear, and tells me that if he loses interest, then he won't be worth worrying about.
Illogical-Sara is just missing him like mad already and almost trembling with frustration and worry.
The Crazy is back
OK, so the guy from "The Crazy" Part I has actually disappeared off the face of the Earth. This is probably a good thing, him being older than me and somewhat of a settled grown-up man, and he wasn't really all that attractive anyway...
So what is Sara now going to waffle about? Closure and all that stuff.
So there was a guy I spent a lot of last year drooling over. A big Scot hailing from near Edinburgh way (but who now lives an hour away from me). Eventually I got the guts to make it clear I liked him, and it came to pass that he wasn't interested - so FINALLY I was able to go "Oh, OK", scrub him from the 'potentials' list and carry on. Actually quite easy to do once you know for sure.
So last week I was back with the gang that includes him (mates from old workplace), had a brilliant week skiing in the Alps, playing cards and being merry, and suddenly he was much more friendly that he'd ever been before. Prolonged eye-contact, asking interested questions about the things I get up to and enjoy doing, discussing future plans and frustrations with life, laughing at all my awful jokes and quips, talking about visiting Bristol, leaving 'x's at the end of his text messages, taking an unusually high number of pictures of me (+ scenery), choosing to sit next to me almost every time (group of 11)...
All minor stuff really but rather a change from before. It should probably be noted that I've lost nearly two stone since I last saw him.
So now, he's clawed his way up to the top of the list, and thrown me for six, and now we're back in different towns again and instead of seeing him daily it's going to be not for a while now (no plans), and he's not replied to the email (that he asked me to send!), and so it's all gone quiet again and the rather nice experience of - well, not really flirting - but the almost-knowing looks we were giving each other and shy smiles and in-jokes and silly laughter.... has disappeared, and I'm back to that almost /fear/ that I'm going to muck it all up somehow.
And to be honest, with my track record, Sod's Law is strong with me.
Logical-Sara is very clear, and tells me that if he loses interest, then he won't be worth worrying about.
Illogical-Sara is just missing him like mad already and almost trembling with frustration and worry.
The Crazy is back
