I'm sorry that you went through that experience. If someone had been able to talk to you, and was able to stop the bullying, would that have helped?
This might sound like a weird question, but what made you change your mind?
Ah it was years a go - I'm 55 now, but I appreciate it. Interestingly enough or not I've had the odd bout of depression for no real reason from time to time along the way though.
I stopped it myself although it took a long time to bring myself down from doing it. I was fully clothed with all the layers on and ready and the sea was only a 500 yard walk away from me at the time. I guess the act of putting all the clothes on was the major factor in getting other thought processes going.
Yes, it wouldn't have taken very much to feel a bit better at the time...parents that could see I had a problem, a decent teacher or two, the ability for me to not feel completely worthless and to actually tell someone etc. Instead I bottled it up, skived off school and got in trouble about truancy...I was likely the only kid in Liverpool that went to the library when they did though
Even with all the bad reports and disruption I'd cause in class no one asked the question, is everything alright? In the end my mind went into self preservation mode and I flipped - two of the three lads got a right royal kicking at the same time in front of a lot of other kids. In hindsight it would have been great to have some confidence and to stand up to them in some way possibly, but I only really got that in my early twenties unfortunately.