UPDATE :
I'm alive, I sat down last night trying to think what was the right thing to do, I kept thinking either 'fight or flight', so I decided instead to take the elusive middle ground and write him a letter explaining politely that what he did to me was wrong, I felt it needed to be said, I thought maybe being in ink it would resonate more, there was a dash of empathy in there because he is human after all with he's own set of problems but I explained that the people around him shouldn't suffer because of that, maybe it was the right thing to do, maybe not, either way he came down today with the letter in his hand and apologised profusely.
Now I'm not sure where that leaves me now, I still feel like I'm living with a ticking time bomb and one that I have to handle with care, he did say to me that he doesn't want to move out, I think besides my letter that was something he was pondering also as he has no money and his parents won't have him living at theirs full time due to his drinking and drug taking.
That fact is this incident has made me realise that I need to change my life, my room has become a gilded cage full of trinkets that have become a poor substitute for my dwindling happiness, I've been stuck in a rut for years now, I can never be content living in a room any more, owning my own washing machine has become a dream of mine but I should have bigger aspirations than that, at the age of 34 I should already have all the basic amenities in my life.
I have read every reply and I really appreciate the support, you guys really came through for me, I'm sorry if this isn't an 'apt' outcome considering the circumstances, my plan now is to save every penny I earn, that is top priority, I am currently residing in Newquay, career prospects are pretty grim down here, not a lot of people have jobs all the year round and most jobs only pay minimum wage, once I've got a nest egg set-up I will have a lot more confidence about moving, in the mean time I will look for work up country, I don't really have any credible qualifications but I just want to basic job to get me started up country (bucks), I've always had a yearning to go back home, I'll move into a 'normal' flat (nothing extravagant), I'll supplement my wages with housing benefit if I have to, not sure how well that will go down on here but I need a better living space, I feel that will help me immensely, if I can get the basics sorted then I can work on myself and hopefully reeducate myself in a better environment.