Depression

I don't think I am depressed but I am feeling a little down at the moment, unsure why. this year I have a new job and all is good but I am really bored living at home. No women, no fun, no mates and it isn'that cheap but I had a bit of a car crash and have a few financial issues to sort out 1st. I think I also need a cat, sounds odd but we had 2 cats and they died. They really used to cheer me up as sad as that is. :D
 
We had two cats, one died in February this year. It severly affected my Dad. Although the illness he has now is not directly related, it certainly has had a big impact on his health. Emotional health is a major aspect in the circle of one's health.
 
I've suffered from depression since I was 15 (I'm 24 now), I've been on many different medications, I was originally on seroxat for a couple years which I tried to kill myself while taking (before the seroxat controversy came out) as well as "self medicating" which resulted in my being sectioned in October last year. But since last October I've been on Citalopram and Quetiapine and I'm in the best frame of mind in many many years.
 
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I was diagnosed in my late teens - they had me on prozac. It wasn't a good experience and the drugs didn't work.

I firmly believe my doctor got it wrong. I wasn't depressed, just going through a rough patch. I'd be careful of any doctor throwing around a depression diagnosis; it's an easy option for them.
 
Yes, never had any help for it though, everyone seems to have it these days. Most of my problems come down to incredibly bad anxiety, always in physical pain.
 
AHarvey said:
Hi,

Just wondering if anyone here has ever been diagnosed with depression?

If so, what was your life like before and after treatment and what was it that finally made you go see a doctor about it?

Not after medical advice here just interested in peoples personal experiences :)
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I have been diagnosed with depression, some years ago.

My life before treatment was existence and I was tired of that. Random example event that stuck in my mind later: I wanted a mug of tea. When I got to the kitchen, I realised that I didn't have a clean mug (I hadn't washed up for I don't know how long). I couldn't cope with the Herculean (as it seemed to me) task of washing up a mug. I slumped against a wall in despair and huddled there for some hours, long enough for it to get dark.

My life was not good.

Treatment was venlafaxine (75mg per day, IIRC) and therapy. Hours and hours of therapy, and I needed every minute of it. I was lucky with my second therapist, a very wise man. The drug made me functional enough and the therapy gave me a better perspective and weapons to use against depression.

My life after treatment was and is quite good. A couple of years after treatment, I obtained a a job as a lecturer at a college and did it well (according to internal inspections, an OFSTED inspection and the letters of praise from students, so it wasn't a faulty self-assessment). Bear in mind that before treatment washing a mug was sometimes far beyond me.

No one thing finally made me see a doctor about it, after years of my life were wasted by it, but I think my decision was initially triggered by people's reaction to me playing noughts and crosses on my forearm with a spike. I think that was when I started to realise that something was wrong.

If this sounds insane, that's because it is.
 
Mat said:
I was on that for some time and it is worth taking them. They dont fix the problem, theyre not a magic bullet, but they help you get to a state where you can tackle the symptoms; they will help you in your attempts to overcome the anxiety and depression, they wont do it for you.

All drugs affect people differently. Personally, I had no side effects and would use Citalopram again if I needed to.
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This^

I took them after 6 years of chronic depression, anxiety and basic denial. The first few weeks the tablets made me feel strange and nauseous. At night I would just lay on my bed and I could feel the tablets working... its almost like it gie It would stop me from going too low. Its very hard to describe.

You need to work with them though. The first step is in understanding that depression is an actual medical condition, not just a weakness (Which is what I was programmed to think) it is a disease and it can be treated. Once you understand that I think it helps a lot. With the help of your GP, tablets and family you can really start to make changes in your life.

8 months from first going to the doctors about my feelings, to then finishing the tablets by my own choice, I made a great recovery and was back to normal. I'm now more stronger, I recognise my feelings much better and I know what habits and paterns of thought are bad for me.

If I ever got into a bad state again I wouldn't hesitate to go back to my GP and start on Citalopram.
 
I was diagnosed with depression in 1993 following drug addiction. I was severely depressed for about a year and then on and off for another four years.

I now have OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder), GAD (general anxiety disorder) and possible APD (Avoidant Personality Disorder).

All this thanks to an abusive grandfather. At the age of 38 and having seen numerous therapists over the years, I am coming to the conclusion that I will not be 'cured' and am learning to live with it.

Thankfully, life does get better. I am mentally stronger now than I have ever been.
 
I was on anti depressants for a few months. But now i'm just on propanalol (beta blockers) as i just start worrying to much and have panic attacks occasionally. Taking the beta blockers just stops it happening, which is pretty sweet.
 
What amazes me is actually the amount of people suffering from the various types of depression. Same thing happened on another forum I'm on, where the type of people you never considered to be depressed were. Amazing really.

I don't suffer depression, but my wife does and I find it hard to deal with, as it can come totally out of the blue :(
 
I guess this is one of the advantages of internet forums, it's a slightly more anonymous and therefore easier way to kind of write about these things. Keep going lads :cool:
 
My mother used to / does...It used to end up involving alcohol in the end, and several overdoses which I must say did affect my upbringing a bit due to arguments and various events.

I couldn't tell you exactly what tablets she now takes (I could, but I'm not going to go through my mothers purse), but they do help, one is to stop her from drinking...almost physically, as it makes her ill if she drinks while she is on the tablet.

I've had what I call depression myself, but never been diagnosed, it was more of just me getting myself too involved in the instances during my upbringing I believe.
 
Greenlizard0 said:
I guess this is one of the advantages of internet forums, it's a slightly more anonymous and therefore easier way to kind of write about these things. Keep going lads :cool:
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Getting your thoughts across to people in text format is by far the easiest way of doing it I think.

But I guess it could be bad due to the seclusiveness of it...?
 
I didn't think i'd get so many decent replies, thanks :)

As you may of guessed I am having a rough time of it and that was the reason for my post, however its 3 weeks before I can get in to my doctors. Have tempted to go join BUPA before I even mention being depressed just to see if I get a better service.

I've been thinking for a while that something isn't right. Its as though I've got this big grey cloud in my head and it is just smothering all my emotions, although anger seems readily available.

I've got a house, an amazing girl who i've been with since we were both 15, now 27, and we are getting married in May. The plan was to get married, get the wedding all paid off and start having a family. I recently told her that I don't want kids and its killed us both, her because her dream future has gone and me because of how hurt she is. There are 3 reasons for not wanting kids, I want to do more things with my life (despite doing nothing cuz I can't be bothered), the cost and more importantly, I am honestly scared that I just won't have any feelings for this child!

When I go to work I feel nothing, I just get one with the job but when I am at home I just have no motivation, hell, the xmas tree from last year still needs cutting up and burning :( I loose my temper far too quickly with my other half, it scares her and I can't blame her, I did break my hand last year punching a wall in anger. Withthings like the Twin Towers and the Tsunami I just shrugged my shoulders and went "**** happens!" yet I can watch a program about a female cop in america that got shot 7 times and I end up in tears! I am just really confused by it all!

My dad, who I no longer speak to, has problems. Suicide attempts, wife beating, trouble with the police and in and out of mental health facilities. I have no idea what is wrong with him though.

Like I said, its all very confusing to me. Thanks for listening/reading :)
 
I hate the meds, as someone has previously mentioned, they do make you feel numb and passive, but hey, when I'm not on them I can't get anything done. So what option do I have? Everyone's got to work.
 
dmpoole said:
I rang everybody up and told them not to worry anymore because Robert Kilroy Silk had cured me
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Two things.

I found the above quote extremely amusing, since for most people Robert Kilroy-Silk has entirely the opposite effect.

Secondly, wtf does your signature mean? are you referring in any way to OcUK member [TW]Fox (I think that's his name)?
 
AHarvey said:
I didn't think i'd get so many decent replies, thanks :)

As you may of guessed I am having a rough time of it and that was the reason for my post, however its 3 weeks before I can get in to my doctors. Have tempted to go join BUPA before I even mention being depressed just to see if I get a better service.

I've been thinking for a while that something isn't right. Its as though I've got this big grey cloud in my head and it is just smothering all my emotions, although anger seems readily available.

I've got a house, an amazing girl who i've been with since we were both 15, now 27, and we are getting married in May. The plan was to get married, get the wedding all paid off and start having a family. I recently told her that I don't want kids and its killed us both, her because her dream future has gone and me because of how hurt she is. There are 3 reasons for not wanting kids, I want to do more things with my life (despite doing nothing cuz I can't be bothered), the cost and more importantly, I am honestly scared that I just won't have any feelings for this child!

When I go to work I feel nothing, I just get one with the job but when I am at home I just have no motivation, hell, the xmas tree from last year still needs cutting up and burning :( I loose my temper far too quickly with my other half, it scares her and I can't blame her, I did break my hand last year punching a wall in anger. Withthings like the Twin Towers and the Tsunami I just shrugged my shoulders and went "**** happens!" yet I can watch a program about a female cop in america that got shot 7 times and I end up in tears! I am just really confused by it all!

My dad, who I no longer speak to, has problems. Suicide attempts, wife beating, trouble with the police and in and out of mental health facilities. I have no idea what is wrong with him though.

Like I said, its all very confusing to me. Thanks for listening/reading :)
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one tip for dealing with anger is when you feel it just take deep breaths and try to think about what punching the wall or your angry actions would achieve, aka nothing.and also if possible see it from the perspective of your OH.

in the end you just wont get angry, or when you do it will be controlled and beneficial to yourself. Worked for my father and worked for me.
 
Robbie G said:
Secondly, wtf does your signature mean? are you referring in any way to OcUK member [TW]Fox (I think that's his name)?
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I would imagine it refers to Foxs ability to always think of himself as above others and to try and constantly drop hints about just how good he/his life is.

etom said:
one tip for dealing with anger is when you feel it just take deep breaths and try to think about what punching the wall or your angry actions would achieve, aka nothing.and also if possible see it from the perspective of your OH.

in the end you just wont get angry, or when you do it will be controlled and beneficial to yourself. Worked for my father and worked for me.
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Yeah, I no longer punch things after breaking my hand,oh, and losing a £40 glass mouse mat after smacking my hand in to it.

But I can fel the anger swell inside, to the point where I just want to smash the crap out of everything. I don't though, I can control it but it dfoesn't help that the other half will just keep going on and not let me calm down first. Keep meaning to start martial arts again as this used to really help when I was a teenager, but again, its one of things I've been meaning to do for 6 months but just never get round too!
 
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