woke up this morning wanting to die

[tom_e]

I went to my local mental health team and was told that the waiting list is long over a year, I feel I don't have that time to waste, I'd like to carry on with my life.
I just can't explain it, but just feel unhappy and I cry, I should not feel this way but I do. I have nice stuff at home, live in central London the nice part but somehow I feel low, I feel like I'm a failure in life, I going to get old and die alone, a few times Ive thought I'd just hang myself on the banister.

Get on that waiting list, you've got nothing to lose, it's not time wasted it's just sat there ticking down while you get on and do other things.

If you can get in quicker with your insurance great but get on that ****ing waiting list.

 

[LordSplodge]

You're forty, not exactly old. Try Mindfulness it may help http://www.amazon.co.uk/books/dp/074995308X

Meds are short term plus worried I might lose my hair on them or other negative side effects.

What's wrong with losing your hair?

 

[Ilikeitblackplease]

Need to see a doctor, really.

Medication might be needed - messed up serotonin levels or whatever can spark anxiety.

Lifestyle factors are worth looking at, to help with general happiness, but those aren't necessarily what's causing the anxiety - other than being out of work perhaps, since that lack of a structure, and perhaps lack of contact with other people can increase feeling of isolation.

that my be the case, as I can't really focus on anything or identify the main cause but this has been going on for a while and needed to tell someone.
Its something that I can't resolve which itself makes me unhappy, there is no cause but only effect.

It's difficult to interpret my unhappiness, My happiness leads me to think about the above, but its very hard to explain it.

 

[OhEsEcks]

If you tell your doctor or the mental health resource team you're planning on hanging yourself from the banister, you'll skip the waiting list. I guarantee it.

Source: Schizoaffective disorder bipolar type, been dealing with mental health teams for the last 15 years and have been hospitalised. If I told my CPN next friday "I'm feeling suicidal and I'm thinking about hanging myself from the banister" I'd be bounced back into hospital so fast my feet wouldn't touch the floor. As for meds making you lose your hair, I take so many meds and such high doses I rattle when I walk, yet still have a great head of hair (but I shave my head because I'm cheap)... it's not like they're chemo meds.

You're being told there's a list because they don't think you're an emergency. So either your team is ****, or you're not telling them everything.

So get off the computer, go back to the doctor or mental health resource center and tell them absolutely EVERYTHING.

 

[Ilikeitblackplease]

If you tell your doctor or the mental health resource team you're planning on hanging yourself from the banister, you'll skip the waiting list. I guarantee it.

Source: Schizoaffective disorder bipolar type, been dealing with mental health teams for the last 15 years and have been hospitalised. If I told my CPN next friday "I'm feeling suicidal and I'm thinking about hanging myself from the banister" I'd be bounced back into hospital so fast my feet wouldn't touch the floor. As for meds making you lose your hair, I take so many meds and such high doses I rattle when I walk, yet still have a great head of hair (but I shave my head because I'm cheap)... it's not like they're chemo meds.

You're being told there's a list because they don't think you're an emergency. So either your team is ****, or you're not telling them everything.

So get off the computer, go back to the doctor or mental health resource center and tell them absolutely EVERYTHING.

Its hard I feel embarrassed to, its not that easy. I'm not planning it but i do think it often.

 

[PaulieG]

From what I can guess, you are the only cure. I would suggest start looking up at life and not let it beat you down. Get online, see if you can meet a few people / ladies and start to socialise a bit. Get used to people company, take up a hobby be it active or painting by numbers to get your mind thinking on something positive.

Meeting people online often helps if you are a little down on self confidence, the first date is never really the first date.

It is easy to get into a rut and can be a chore to get out but it is definitely greener on the other side.

Good luck buddy..

 

[Ilikeitblackplease]

From what I can guess, you are the only cure. I would suggest start looking up at life and not let it beat you down. Get online, see if you can meet a few people / ladies and start to socialise a bit. Get used to people company, take up a hobby be it active or painting by numbers to get your mind thinking on something positive.

Meeting people online often helps if you are a little down on self confidence, the first date is never really the first date.

It is easy to get into a rut and can be a chore to get out but it is definitely greener on the other side.

Good luck buddy..

Have a date this weekend, however I just don't know why I truly feel like this, waking up in the mornings grasping for air and being scared, causing anxiety.

 

[Schlong&Stable]

I'd suggest cancelling the dating till you've got your head on straight.

 

[Ilikeitblackplease]

I'd suggest cancelling the dating till you've got your head on straight.

But I feel that if I dont try and pull out of this it will get worse, so not going on the date getting out of the house will make things worse for me.

 

[BrightonBelle]

Please go and find another Doc.

Is it because of your health that you don't have a job?

BB x

 

[malachi]

Dont benchmark your archivements by age otherwise you end up having a midlife crisis.

Start making new goals in life, write them down and start creating opportunities for yourself.

Sitting around moping isn't going to help.

 

[Keyboards'Fear]

Might I suggest looking out for a Social Anxiety group? I started going to one here in Bristol last year, even though I didn't believe I had SA. Well, not as bad as some people have it.

Ended up being one of the best things to ever happen to me. You'd be surprised how easy you find it to start talking to strangers, and how comforting it is when you learn they have the same feelings. And it turns out 98% of people with SA are the nicest people ever.
The group finished due to lack of funding, but everyone is still in contact and we all go to socials every now and then, in fact we're having one tonight down at the pub.

It really really is a good way to meet people, and they're always nice, and so easy to talk with them and make good friends. If you can get yourself to the gym OP, you can get yourself to one of those hopefully.

You just feel like a part of society again

 

[Tacitus]

Great excuse to try new things - join a club or take up a new sport (though keep gyming it!) and do some volunteering while searching for a job. When did you last work? What did you do?

Do this and get yourself out there - internet dating is all the rave these days and if you live in a city shouldn't struggle too much to get a few dates, which can always be fun.

Don't worry about being childless either, my flatmate's GF is 22 and her parents are in their late 60s, and my auntie in her 40s just had her first son a year ago with her 50 year old husband.

So go and get yourself out there! Good luck mate!

 

[arc@css]

I went through this when I was 20.

 

[kwerk]

Sounds and looks like hypogonadism. Ask your doctor.

 

[djshauny1]

If you ever need to talk then send me a trust message mate.

Weve all been through difficult times and talking to people who understand really helps

Good luck mate and fight this head on

 

[neoboy]

Some GPs like to throw medication at you with relative easy so depends how you feel about that option but as for seeing somebody if your local team is giving you crazy waiting lists try a local Mind or other mental health charity.

Definitely a time to try a few new things though to see if you can ignite that little spark of passion.

 

[bushmins]

Asbestos, ha I laugh in the face of it. Or at least I did 26 years ago while I was smashing it up at the disused farm opposite my house when I was a kid...

 

[Surfer]

Look on the bright side, your 40, single with no kids

This ^^ Just about every person i know (family inc) dont actually seem happy in their marriage! Unless bitching and whinging all the time is actually code for being happy?

Also found that the female market opens up (no pun intended!) massively when you get to your late 30s - 40s for guys. You are PRIME delicious meat for all those milfs out there buddy!!

If its something in your head see if you can arrange counselling. And like others have said maybe for short term your GP can prescribe an appropriate course of medication.

 

[Tefal]

Meds are short term plus worried I might lose my hair on them or other negative side effects.

ive never head of anti depresants causing hair loss?