Lysander, why do you do this to yourself? Why do you want to make yourself look like an absolute, deluded poor soul, consciously sprouting forth such lies and nonsense? Is it that if you repeat something to yourself so many times, it somehow becomes true? At first, I was joking when I said 'go book yourself into a psychiatric ward', but now I am convinced you may have some deeper issues at hand that may need professional advice. I strongly recommend you visit your GP, and get yourself checked out. I am not joking. Please, just read your own posts mate. It's not us that needs convincing, it's you.
I'm flattered by your concern but it's responses such as these which are part and parcel of posting on OcUK. You will think I'm the deluded one, and I will think you're the deluded one. It's a stalemate, but there you go.