I have no problem doing things by myself, I've done it all my life. If I wanted to go on holiday by myself I'd have absolutely no problem doing so.
Dude, loads have giving you suggestions which you have brushed off considering you was the one who started this thread. Each to their own as you said but you clearly have some underlying issues no one here can solve.
Book yourself in and see a professional. At least take that bit of advice from this thread.