Life has shown me there is no one answer fits all as we are all different, with different aspirations and comfort levels.
So true. We are all different.
I am an 'only chick.' When my Father passed on in 2008, suddenly, I was distraught, but had to 'hold it together' for my Mother. But, I was filled with rage. Blind rage at him. How could he have done this to me/us. I had always been a 'daddy's girl.' During that awful first month I truly believed that the only way that I could go on and survive was to 'put it away' somewhere deep inside me. Three years before that I had been widowed in a car crash after a ten month marriage.
The rage was intense, so intense that for a year I literally lived on and in it. I assuaged that rage by working 14 to 16 hour days. I was so mad at my Father that I was blind to all other emotions. Fortunately I work for myself, and didn't have to punch a clock. My work also includes a lot of traveling, and the content of my work changes from week to week, or month to month, so there was no question of boredom seeping in.
Of course, this couldn't last; I was losing sleep, working my body to a frazzle, and my nightmares came back full force. (I have suffered from nightmares on and off for all of my life).
Then one day, after a year, the inevitable happened; I had a breakdown. Nervous exhaustion, grief and rage took its toll. During the weeks of convalescence, and supported by much love and care from my family I came thro it all. I took a sabbatical for a year, and spent my time meditating and relaxing, and with therapy I began to look inside myself and truly tried to 'connect' with the feelings there.
It was then that I began to realize that 'this was meant to be.' I had to evolve, learn and grow spiritually (I'm not talking religion here; I am an Atheist, up to a point). But I knew then that my soul has much to do, much to overcome, defeat, move on and up.
I'm not saying it was easy, and one can 'slip back.' There were a couple of times when I came close to wondering why the heck I should stay around in the physical body. I'm not afraid of death, since I don't believe in the concept of death. Moreover, I have a very determined and independent spirit, so I got thro it and am moving on now. I took another sabbatical from work in 2013, which kinda went into about 15 months, but fortunately I can do that.
My philosophy is that if one is still here, then one is meant to be here still; one still has obstacles to overcome, feats to achieve, goals to help one grow and evolve...
There's an old saying: Today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday.