I don't see how being social is "better" or "productive" its not in my eyes, I want to be left alone.
I'm not admitting defeat in anyway, being social is something I just do not want to deal with, as I said above, I want to be left alone by myself. There is nothing wrong with that, some people just don't want to be around others for one reason or another. I myself find it too stressful to deal with.
Being homeless with nothing and no one isn't pretty. You have support right now but if that went away what would you do? Live on the street?
Sort out the issue because it definitely is one and get on with life and a career - you can change all of that.