Other people's perceptions are worth much more over your own - you see yourself every day and it's hard to notice a difference, even with pictures.
The biggest thing that made me realise I had changed was the reaction from female friends but also from my friends and peers around me. It gave that confidence boost to put the effort in and carry on. I do miss being "big", but I have been described as "built" which is good enough - I can still shift big weights around, and to be honest I feel healthier.
IT's so easy to be self critical though - when I was striving for size and strength I just was never happy. Constantly looking at the scales, constantly forcing food down my throat and spending so much time in the gym that whilst the results paid for themselves, I spent most of the time in the gym and not enough time going out and enjoying myself.
Dedication is important, but so is having a life. I've actually found it easier to lean up and maintain the muscle mass than trying to strive for size.
In fact, I've done everything I always say you need not do - bulk, then cut! Hypocrite!
I do still have sessions where I will spend 2hrs in teh gym just grinding myself into a pulp of sweat, blood and pain - I do like that a lot. However, not every session.
I will start on some more serious strength training soon, but whilst I've got about 10% off my totals at the moment, I can live with that, as my power:weight has improved.
The biggest thing that made me realise I had changed was the reaction from female friends but also from my friends and peers around me. It gave that confidence boost to put the effort in and carry on. I do miss being "big", but I have been described as "built" which is good enough - I can still shift big weights around, and to be honest I feel healthier.
IT's so easy to be self critical though - when I was striving for size and strength I just was never happy. Constantly looking at the scales, constantly forcing food down my throat and spending so much time in the gym that whilst the results paid for themselves, I spent most of the time in the gym and not enough time going out and enjoying myself.
Dedication is important, but so is having a life. I've actually found it easier to lean up and maintain the muscle mass than trying to strive for size.
In fact, I've done everything I always say you need not do - bulk, then cut! Hypocrite!
I do still have sessions where I will spend 2hrs in teh gym just grinding myself into a pulp of sweat, blood and pain - I do like that a lot. However, not every session.
I will start on some more serious strength training soon, but whilst I've got about 10% off my totals at the moment, I can live with that, as my power:weight has improved.