'We' being my man charlie. ****ing *****. My best mate but he sort of ****ed that by nicking my wallet one night and drawing out £300 on my card. I had to re book my ****ing driving test because of that. I should ****ing have the hump but I've sort of let it go. Don't get me wrong, I don't trust him anywhere to the point that I did, but he's the best mate I've ever had. Poor sod. 20 years old, one kid, another on the way, him and his misses live in a mice and cockroach infested **** hole in walhamstow/leyton. I don't like to think I have a lot of money but I try and show them a good night when I can. Did £40 on pizza the other night. £40. If they need anything for their kid I'm the first to offer. When I've got to get my wallet out and give them a quid for some milk so the boy you know things are a bit sad. If only he didn't start the smack when we we're fresh out of school. I'd have given my life for him, but now I can't trust him but I haven't learned enough to stay away.
I can't bring a kid into this ****. I've been wanting one really bad lately but I've got to wait. I'm going to give them a better life than I had, that's for sure. I've ****ing got to.