Road to the BNBF Welsh Qualifiers 2011 - Progess Journal

I've failed you guys. Best I can hope for is 4th, I didn't make weight for whatever reason. Be it not dieting hard enough or long enough. I just want to cry as I feel so angry and embarrassed :(

I don't want to go back tonight but I will for the people that travelled down as they deserve that from me at least

I don't even feel like going back to a gym after all this if dieting hard like that for 20 weeks and working hard before that for all that time means I only look like that then I don't want it anymore
 
Chin up Steedie, you are being way to hard on yourself mate!

This is your first time and you are doing great, I've been so enspired by you I am thinking of doing a show next year!

You have already won in a lot of ways just by making it on stage when so many others fail, keep your head held high and have fun with it mate. :)
 
Definely agree with JT you've already done what most people can only dream of and you've made amazing progress, as with everything its all about what you've proven you can do and what you've learnt from the experience. Most people are too lazy to even loose a few lbs never mind hit stage condition. You're an inspiration mate!
 
Steedie said:
I've failed you guys. Best I can hope for is 4th, I didn't make weight for whatever reason. Be it not dieting hard enough or long enough. I just want to cry as I feel so angry and embarrassed :(

I don't want to go back tonight but I will for the people that travelled down as they deserve that from me at least

I don't even feel like going back to a gym after all this if dieting hard like that for 20 weeks and working hard before that for all that time means I only look like that then I don't want it anymore
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Dude, don't give up, this is your first competition after all, you have the opportunity to do more. Don't forget m8 how heavy you were and how much weight you have lost. Seriously, give it a few days and you will appreciate what you have achieved once the emotion of it all has died down.

How do you reckon you would have done if you made the lighter weight class?

As you are now much lighter you could go up to 78-80kg off season and then you have much much less of a hurdle to make weight for the next comp and you have the opportunity to build some mass when you can be eating rather than dieting.

You have achieved a quality physique whilst most of the time was spent dieting.

You are so wrong thinking you have failed just because you may not have finished higher up the rankings.
 
Mate we're all proud of you, no matter what the actual results are. Weighing in slightly more than you'd like (know what that feels like!!) doesn't detract from months of extreme dedication.

1st comps are a learning process, don't be too hard on yourself :)
 
Dude. This is the first time youve tried this. The fact you got on stage is more than most people here would be willing to do! The progress and learning you've done has been tremendous. You haven't let anybody down or yourself you should be proud of everything you've achieved. You've done so well. Don't feel dejected. If you don't feel you've done as well as you think you can, learn from it and get better!

I for one an genuinely impressed and in awe as you've done and are doing something I'd have no chance of doing.
 
Freefaller said:
Dude. This is the first time youve tried this. The fact you got on stage is more than most people here would be willing to do! The progress and learning you've done has been tremendous. You haven't let anybody down or yourself you should be proud of everything you've achieved. You've done so well. Don't feel dejected. If you don't feel you've done as well as you think you can, learn from it and get better!

I for one an genuinely impressed and in awe as you've done and are doing something I'd have no chance of doing.
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totally agree...well done mate!
 
Well it's all over :)

I didn't place but wasn't expecting too as you can tell from my post earlier. But I felt so much better doing my posing routine, which, I felt went well but JT can tell better from where he was I'm sure. Plenty of homo here but I had a little cry as I walked off for the last time just through relief that it's all over and done now

I drank way too much brandy before going on again though as there was a delay so had some more while waiting. I went on stage quite drunk and I felt extremely ill after partly due to all the brownies I ate after as well.

Sorry JT I didn't see you after, I had to go find somewhere to barf and just empty my stomach. And the toilets in the venue with tan stained seats. Yours and Monkees, and Desmos support today was vital to me not throwing in the towel, thank you so much. I can't tell you how much it means to me you came down to watch. Your all legends in my eyes, as are all of you on here for all your support since the start

A part of me still feels I let you all down after everything, I couldn't bring you back a trophy. But I will one day. That I promise you
 
I don't have any until tomorrow. I paid for them all and I get an email with them all tomorrow. So will post some then. I'm sure JT took some great ones too with his fantastic camera
 
Steedie, thats ok mate, and glad I could be there to support you.

Big well done again for the day mate, you did yourself (and us) proud! :)

I will have a look at the pictures I took when I get home from work tomorrow and pass them by Steedie before posting any up.
 
Well we're back at the outlaws now, it's been a long day.

Steedie, you did really well fella, don't let it get you down too much. You were unlucky with the way the weights split, sticking you in with the middleweights. Either way, there was some damn strong competition on stage today and you done yourself proud and that's the only person you have to worry about :)

Was great to meet up with some of you guys as well...Monkee, J.T. and his bro. Nice group and really got in to it :)

Steedie said:
A part of me still feels I let you all down after everything, I couldn't bring you back a trophy. But I will one day. That I promise you
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So, you're going back for more then? :D
 
Steedie said:
Definitely :) I'm going to have a huge off season and try and put a few lbs on. I think with sharper conditioning and a bit more size, I'll be able to do well :)
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No thinking needed mate, I know you will do well!

When you were going through your individual routine last night you looked so much more relaxed and less stressed than the compulsory poses, and in the pose down as well you just looked like you were starting to have fun with it. :)

EDIT: Forgot to say how great it was to meet you all (Desmo/Monkee/Steedie + your Ladies) and what a great bunch you all are! :)
 
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And I'm back to work, horrah........!

Was great to meet you all, was very relaxed and nice to put some faces (and thongs, Steedie!) to names! ;)

It's a great shame you didn't weigh in to the light weights (babeh!) category, but a lesson learnt for next year I suppose :) I'll have a look through Beka's photos next time I'm down Leeds to see how hers came out, but I dare say JT's going to have the best collection!

Desmo, how did Sinead do?
 
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