LOL! You get used to it - it's all that test flowing through your veins Embrace it!
You have to buy from the american site but they ship from within the UK in 1-2 days so I read. It was $46-47 including p&p so works out at about £27ish pounds. Fairly pricy but cheaper than buying a think olympic barbell and can transfer to any dumbell too. Apparently they're pritty solid.
The fatgripz are great craic benny, you'll love them. They make things WAY thicker, I completely underestimated the difference even though my bro had warned me. He's using them most sessions and has noticed a massive difference - the forearm pump he gets is ridiculous looking
In anticipation of my Fat Gripz arriving I also focused on my grip some more. I've gotten into a nasty habit of 'holding' the dumbell/barbell/cable handles as opposed to gripping them, sometimes with my fingers and thumbs extended. So today I squeezed the living **** out of them! Not only did I find it made the concentric slightly easier but also recruited more of the working muscles.
If you've gotten into the same habit as me, try giving whatever your holding some 'death grip' treatment.
I think your body is probably in starvation mode if that's all you're eating, is your log entirely honest? Do you eat any vegetables?
Sorry if the above sounds a bit blunt - that's not how I meant it to sound!
If you're that heavy I think you should try eating a little more, especially in the morning try some porridge/oats, ditch the kit kat with lunch and try get more salad in.
Are you eating the same every day? Try eat more meals throughout the day and you'll get less hungry and likely to snack on rubbish.