Hard to describe, i put my daily symtpoms above in the thread but heres a vague/general overview.
https://www.anxietyuk.org.uk/anxiety-type/depersonalisation/
https://www.anxietyuk.org.uk/anxiety-type/depersonalisation/
Hey all,
As anyone had an experience with requesting to work from home? I honestly think it's something my job role would allow for (Attending work HQ one day a week to pick up stuff). I also think it would be good for me mental health wise, I'm just not sure if it's something my boss would go for, it's a small company and he's young so might not understand my reasons for requesting it (He knows I suffer with mental health issues). I've found a example letter via the mind.org website, but the website and letter quotes mental health disability and the protection of the Equality Act and I'm not sure if that's applicable?
Thanks in advance,
James.
Sertraline can be a pretty big shift physiologically. My partner is on it and when first starting she got acid reflux. It generally hit her pretty hard, intense effects etc. Every time they modify the dose (increase) she has a period of drooling too. Adjusting to new medication can certainly make you feel quite off for a week or two.Hey, I've just been diagnosed with "mild depression" and put on sertraline, 50mg doses.
I think it's been going on a while, I've often been quite apathetic about whether I live or not, though never had any thoughts about actually harming myself.
Lately though, my job has been stressful beyond belief and I spiralled out of control to the point several people told me to go and see a doctor.
After a take over I needed to be very high level and strategic to guide my team of 12 through the transition, but all I could do was focus on relatively irrelevant details and everything seemed impossible.
Any time I got to myself, rather than crack on with sorting out the house I bought last year and needs work or building my kit car, I'd just sleep or lie in bed reading.
Day 4 of the meds and I'm struggling, though that was half expected, I've eaten practically nothing, feel like I've got mild flu (maybe linked to not eating much).
The good thing is, just admitting I had a problem and talking to people has helped already, although I feel rubbish now, I'm not dwelling on it and am waiting for the effects to take hold, I can rationalise this as my body adjusting, being rational wasn't something I was very good at of late.
Oh god the weird dreams, yes. My partner's sleep has been disturbed for a long time. I used to take Mirtazapine which created really weird half-awake scenarios where I'd get mixed up between dreams and reality too. Plus restless legs/twitchiness while falling asleep.Thanks, I've not had reflux, I'm just not hungry though. Literally just forced down a scotch egg and a packet of crisps and now feel terrible again. Eating seems to make me feel worse.
I was also warned it could make me hyper and fidgety so to take it in the morning, plus it can cause weird dreams. Not had any of that yet though.
That was me, mate.
When I went to the doctor I got asked if I ever felt like harming myself, and I truthfully replied I hadn't. However I did feel I didn't care if I was to just die, the only thing that pulled me back from those feelings was my daughter.
I ended up getting medication, but I felt much better just having admitted to people that's how I felt, it was almost immediate, and apparently the medication can take a few weeks to kick in.
I feel much better again having been on the happy pills for a few weeks, I also stopped "self medicating" with herbal remedies which has no doubt contributed to my improved state of mind.
Anyone ever have day(s) where you just don't care about anything? Circumstances haven't changed, people think you're in a 'mood' yet you're just not feeling anything up or down it is just neutral.
Today is another one of those days for me.
Everyday?
A year and a half ago my father died, leaving my mother effectively alone. Frequently she tells me she doesn't want to carry on anymore and wants to commit suicide.
The issue is, I am in exactly the same position, and I could never make it known to her. Only one person who knows me knows the truth, and I carry on operating daily at a very high functional level, signing off large contracts, dealing with datacentre level IT stuff and staff.
Each day I just wish I could find the strength to kick IT to the curb and do something which makes me happy, but I have so many ideas/options, I cannot even begin to make a decision. Meanwhile promotions at work come and go, my pay gets better and better, my role becomes increasingly more senior at a national level, but the emptiness gets greater and greater as time goes on, until some days I fear for my own ability to make it to the next day.
What I do about this god only knows, as it has been so long dealing in constant emotional pain of this nature (7 years), I have literally no idea what it could feel like to be happy, nor do I have any hope I will ever find out.
To anyone who knows me, I am externally brash, funny, confident, smart and totally outgoing, with a decent enough physique from torturous gym work. All this hides a dark and frightening inner truth of which I have become an absolute master at hiding. (as many people in similar positions are)
It's like being two people, two personalities, where the inner darkness is an unrelenting abyss of torture which never seems to cease, and I find myself quite looking forward to just leaving the planet.
if you haven't already please seek medical help as soon as possible. When you do you will feel a weight lifted from your shoulders.A year and a half ago my father died, leaving my mother effectively alone. Frequently she tells me she doesn't want to carry on anymore and wants to commit suicide.
The issue is, I am in exactly the same position, and I could never make it known to her. Only one person who knows me knows the truth, and I carry on operating daily at a very high functional level, signing off large contracts, dealing with datacentre level IT stuff and staff.
Each day I just wish I could find the strength to kick IT to the curb and do something which makes me happy, but I have so many ideas/options, I cannot even begin to make a decision. Meanwhile promotions at work come and go, my pay gets better and better, my role becomes increasingly more senior at a national level, but the emptiness gets greater and greater as time goes on, until some days I fear for my own ability to make it to the next day.
What I do about this god only knows, as it has been so long dealing in constant emotional pain of this nature (7 years), I have literally no idea what it could feel like to be happy, nor do I have any hope I will ever find out.
To anyone who knows me, I am externally brash, funny, confident, smart and totally outgoing, with a decent enough physique from torturous gym work. All this hides a dark and frightening inner truth of which I have become an absolute master at hiding. (as many people in similar positions are)
It's like being two people, two personalities, where the inner darkness is an unrelenting abyss of torture which never seems to cease, and I find myself quite looking forward to just leaving the planet.
Best Xmas in years for me so far, thanks.
Rather than sit in the corner trying to avoid getting involved in games etc I actually enjoyed playing with the kids, people cheating in silly ways at daft games and the general carnage of trying to coordinate drunk adults and kids to play games together whereas I'd normally get frustrated and angry about it.
It seems I've been "off kilter" for years as it's a long time since I've been able to enjoy it like that.
Awesome, it's been a bit isolated for me again but that's mainly due to having a split and small family. Glad to be back to work tomorrow anyway
if you haven't already please seek medical help as soon as possible. When you do you will feel a weight lifted from your shoulders.