This Instant And Moment - 2019!

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Nitefly said:
Sounds rough. Please do make an appointment to see your doctor and open up to someone in real life about this. Just a conversation can help!

I’ll never be able to know for sure, but I speculate that most people think about suicide from time to time in the context of “what would the aftermath be”. But, apparently, you are in the danger zone if you start contemplating in detail how it would be carried out (which is something most people don’t think about) so if that is the case, and hopefully it is not, then make sure you speak to someone immediately.

I had a paddy at work yesterday because of stress and it turns out that people were then willing to help and listen. So I’m glad I spoke up.
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I speak to my friends about it, and I have a therapist, and I've seen my doctor etc. Lots of people are aware of what thoughts go through my mind and what I'm going through fortunately.

If I did it (which I hope I don't, but my head works differently when im in a really low place) it wouldn't be anything exciting. I'd just take an overdose of prescription pills and then put my head down to sleep. At two points in my life I have got as far as laying all of the pills out in front of me and staring at them in silence with tears streaming down my face.

The other night wasn't one of those times. But I was thinking about if the light fitting mount on the ceiling would support my weight, and imagining what it would feel like to hang. And I asphyxiated myself a couple of times until I went light headed...

Then I snapped out of it and messaged a bunch of people just so I could talk about anything and nothing to take my mind away from those thoughts, which worked.

Pretty dark stuff, sorry guys.
 
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RxR said:
Doing reasonably well (at some cost) to restrain a Newtonian temper provoked by an environment this morning. In the main, due to the prevalence of failure to apply einsteinian proof functions among scientific peers who should know better. "A little knowledge is a dangerous thing," etc. And they have the temerity to imagine themselves Pythagoreans! Good lord.
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Its like you swallowed a dictionary!

And then vomited it back up...
 
regulus said:
Home alone for the weekend. Girlfriend visiting her parents to break the news that she's pregnant. Couldn't face the hysterics and drama and squealing, so staying at home playing Red Dead 2 and working my way through a bottle of Wild Turkey.
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Many congratulations and/or condolences depending on how you feel about this. :p
 
Steeps said:
I'm not allowed outside with people from the internet unless I am going to be abducted. The last few meets I've been on I've always been returned safely and undamaged :(
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Last one I went to was in London with the developers of Eve online and some Eve online players, the bar was just for us, and they paid for every drink. There were people drinking cocktails out of metal buckets. Sadly when they broke out the Champagne I was passed out in the ladies toilet on the sofa (yes the ladies toilet, gents toilets don't get things like sofas...) My memory is then mostly patchy but I remember ending up in someones flat, diving headlong onto their wicker sofa, which then slid along the wooden floor and snapped their floor lamp in half... I just about managed to say "I'll pay for it..." before falling asleep. :p

That will take some beating that evening!
 
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