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I know I wont be able to build something like this ever again. Took me 7 year of spending all all my money to get it right. To have it where it was i'w not neen on a holiday anywhere in 11 years.
After all whan depression was kicking in I used to put 20 quid in and go driving on b road at 2am with no traffic not far from my place.
Always hoped that one day i will fall asleep behind wheel and kill myself with it on am on way from rave. Since with my condition i dont want to live longer than 45 maybe 50. Last 2 years been a massive struggle mentaly for me only getting worse with time.
After all whan depression was kicking in I used to put 20 quid in and go driving on b road at 2am with no traffic not far from my place.
Always hoped that one day i will fall asleep behind wheel and kill myself with it on am on way from rave. Since with my condition i dont want to live longer than 45 maybe 50. Last 2 years been a massive struggle mentaly for me only getting worse with time.
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