Thank you. No she wasn't our first we had her since she was a few weeks old. Was just not a nice thing to see. The only real positive was she was already 11 so she was getting on but still very fit.
In a nutshell: Came down one morning, there was loads of blood all over the floor I'm talking like murder scene levels.
Straight to vets. Turns out she had a nose tumour and it burst. Took her home after they stemmed it , she was doing weird things like sniffing around her food bowl. Almost like she could see the food in the bowl but she was perhaps wondering why she couldn't smell it properly.
Vets said although it was ok for a bit, next time it happens she'd have to be put down, so the extremely hard decision was made so she wouldn't have to go through it again. There were no warning signs prior to it, I think that's what made it worse, just totally out the blue. Wasn't fair for anyone to have to go through that again.
I'm not ruling it out again, just got quite used to not having the responsibility, not that she was ever a burden but almost feels like it would be somewhat of a chore now, and i wouldn't get a pet if I have that mindset.
That sounds hard, completely out of the blue. But as you say, at least there was no decline and she had a good life up until then. I think your attitude is very mature with regards to another, I'd say it probably would change if you did get one, but yeah, best when you're ready! I don't view it as getting in the way of life but they do add extra considerations to things for sure.