Ugh, I think I've finally realised that the last 10 years of my life I've spent being miserable because of controlling behavior from my wife.
We've been having marriage counselling on her request because our relationship has been pretty poor lately, but the counsellor has basically focussed entirely on her, and she's obviously not happy about that. The reality is that she's been pointing the blame at me for a long time, when actually most of the problems are hers. Digging up her past and her own self-discovery has made her investigate the potential of having PTSD. She's had psychological evaluations and is starting expensive eye movement therapy. I'm pleased she's getting help but there's no telling if it will help.
This evening we were talking and she was just moaning about my hobbies and my work and I decided to tell her that I think we'd be better off apart. I can't continue to be put down by her, continue to pick up the pieces. I've been so supportive of her for years, I've asked nothing of her, and I just can't take the negativity any more.
There are so many page to this book, so many massive chapters that I can't cover it all (we've been together for about 20 years). Needless to say, after that long together, I've got no idea what comes next. We've got two kids, a dog, a cat, a mortgage... and really we just need to lead separate lives. I don't know how to do that!