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im sure banking cards and CCards have an option to stop gambling sites?
its great you have taken the first steps
its great you have taken the first steps
Well I've had a rough 6 weeks. Early September I'm in A&E with food stuck in my throat. Have an endoscopy and I'm told I have eosinophilic Esophagitis (basically my esophagus is inflamed due to a sneaky unspecified food allergy that has no other reactionary affect). I'm talking proton pump inhibitors to reduce acid in my stomach which might have a mild benefit, I can't start the main treatment (Jorveza / budesonide) until the follow up appointment in december. Now I'm pretty anxious that I will get food stuck in my throat again and I'll have another trip to A&E and results in my first panic attack in years when I'm in the office at lunch time.
Two weeks later I'm back in A&E with shortness of breath. Turns out I have multiple pulmonary embolism on both lungs and I'm on blood thinners. I'll be breathless for months whilst the clots dissolve. Signed off on sick leave from work who are being good and giving me full pay.
Currently got a cold which seems to be constricting my throat or airways or something. I can breath acceptably and having been to a&e a further 2 times for my PEs "getting worse" when they were in fact fine I've been assured I'm not going to drop dead.
But I'm feeling pretty tired now and it's only week 4 of this. This is on the back of historic social anxiety issues which are ironically fine now I'm stuck at home!
The good news is that hopefully I'll be put on the Jorveza steroids in December which directly anti inflame my esophagus. The other good news is I've slowly been getting strength back over the last month so hopefully I'll feel better in a month and better still in two months...
Given I feel like my plate is overflowing I'm on the waiting list for NHS CBT therapy (obviously there is a wait for everything) and I've also decided to sign up with Better help even if I have a low opinion of them thanks to their adverts lol. We'll see how it goes.
I just needed to vent really
I need some support of some sort....
I've got myself in a bit of a low dark place over the last month or so, I'm not sure what or where I have to go, I know it's a bad thing to do but I got hooked over the years and now I want to put a stop to it and get myself financially sorted this year not just for me but for my kids and wife....
I have been betting for years now but this weekend I shut all my accounts permanently and signed up to GamStop so I don't deposit onto any bookmakers website, I want to be able to save and not touch it but ive always had the urge to sneak into my savings accounts and transfer money, even if it's just a £10 bet here and there. I know that if I can bring myself away from it all then I could easily save £300 per month but I don't know how to start, I enjoy football, watching and playing but that then makes me want to bet...
It's got to the point where I think, what does the wife and kids actually see in me, I've not got money for the last 2 weeks of every month and can't treat my two beautiful kids to a thing
Any help would be appreciated, I can also take criticism so please feel free
Well it's now 4 months out from my PEs and my mental health has improved a fair bit now I'm breathing normally (I now get 96 to 99% o2 and heart rate in the 70s when resting which I assume is back to what it was before). I Haven't been to A&E or panicked that I am dying for maybe 2 of those months. My next hurdle is an echocardiogram to tell me what the damage is (if any) to my heart, in a few weeks. I'm exercising without chest pain and otherwise fairly fine other than a lack of stamina and losing energy by the end of the day. But knowing I was referred for the echo doesn't help my health anxiety and being hyper vigilant for anything my body is doing...
I had 6 weeks with Better Help who was not that great. The guy set out a sensible plan - use evidence to show yourself the bad thing isn't about to happen - but I struggle with it when my original problems came out of the blue with no symptoms until it wsa too late. I've now started my NHS CBT therapy which seems more helpful in identifying triggers and things.
Bad news is I will soon be stopping my esophagus meds (steriods) as they're untested for long term use, so my throat will swell back up making swallowing difficult again and make meal times unpleasant. At least I now have the physical strength to deal with 12h without food and water if food gets stuck and being unable to take my blood thinners could put me to the front of the A&E queue should/when food gets stuck again lol. The plan is to eliminate dairy as a common trigger and it'll take 6 weeks for any affect to be noticable in tests.
I spend half my time thinking "I can look at buying a classic car again" or thinking about planning a nearby holiday and the other half thinking I should sell all ny possesions to make my wife's life easier...
I need some support of some sort....
I've got myself in a bit of a low dark place over the last month or so, I'm not sure what or where I have to go, I know it's a bad thing to do but I got hooked over the years and now I want to put a stop to it and get myself financially sorted this year not just for me but for my kids and wife....
I have been betting for years now but this weekend I shut all my accounts permanently and signed up to GamStop so I don't deposit onto any bookmakers website, I want to be able to save and not touch it but ive always had the urge to sneak into my savings accounts and transfer money, even if it's just a £10 bet here and there. I know that if I can bring myself away from it all then I could easily save £300 per month but I don't know how to start, I enjoy football, watching and playing but that then makes me want to bet...
It's got to the point where I think, what does the wife and kids actually see in me, I've not got money for the last 2 weeks of every month and can't treat my two beautiful kids to a thing
Any help would be appreciated, I can also take criticism so please feel free
is it just me that get the feeling that life no longer intresting
ive not had it before well at least not to this extent, im struggling with it
While I think this is well intentioned, it may be safer for Minibiker to find ways to step away from betting if he's got to this pointHave you tried a bit of match betting? I used to enjoy a flutter very much but as soon as I started MB I could still bet but I wasn't gambling as if I lost the money was in my exchange account and I slowly started actually making money rather than losing it. I've got absolutely no inclination to make a bet that's a gamble now.
The second the bookies realise what your doing they'll restrict you to pennies or ban you from opening accounts, which definitely feels like a win.
Not heard of it before although it seems vague on the cost (unless I'm missing it but couldn't see it in FAQs)Has anyone tried an app called Alena to help with anxiety?
Even working aged customers say what on earth are the elderly doing shopping on Saturdays!
Wish the retired would stop shopping on Saturday mornings and lunchtime. They have almost all week to shop. But no, they decide to shop at the busiest time of the week. Moan all the time. Their attitude is making our MH bad along with some working aged customers.
Even working aged customers say what on earth are the elderly doing shopping on Saturdays!
My parents are retired and they don’t shop on Saturdays as they have common sense, which these others don’t,
Last time I looked anybody is allowed to shop whenever they want. Grow up!Wish the retired would stop shopping on Saturday mornings and lunchtime. They have almost all week to shop. But no, they decide to shop at the busiest time of the week. Moan all the time. Their attitude is making our MH bad along with some working aged customers.
Even working aged customers say what on earth are the elderly doing shopping on Saturdays!
My parents are retired and they don’t shop on Saturdays as they have common sense, which these others don’t,
I don't think cheesefest is a geezer.LMAO
Isn’t cheesefest from Leicester as well?