**The Mental Health Thread**
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Caporegime
Wouldn't worry about the dreams it's a regular occurence when tapering off or going sober on many substances/drugs, should be back to "normal" level of dreaming rather soon.
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My mental health is absolutely atrocious. My mind festers away; there's no cure. I think one of the main causes is the fact that every fibre of my body repels me job but I've got no similar paid alternatives. That and the fact despite having a ''good job'' and very good degree, I still could never afford to buy a house of my own so I'm stuck renting a small room in a house-share at 32 years old. I'm socially isolated to boot. I've no crystal ball but I can't predict a positive outcome, I feel a terrible amount of injustice.
I can relate to that. I don't think I'd be able to get a job paying more than what I'm on without needing a higher qualification plus I'm still sorting a few health issues so my sick record hasn't been great in the past.
I'm 33 in a couple of months and still living with my mum. I can't even afford any shared ownership properties and the ones I can I'm not eligible for.
There's a lot wrong in the house at the moment so that's dragging me down. I have 3 siblings and they all know what needs to be done but none are helping so it's all on my shoulders to help my mum out. Sometimes I think I should have become a plumber or electrician or a plasterer or all of the above so that my mum wouldn't have to pay out when she can't afford to. My dad used to do everything around the house and then when he passed away everything started going wrong
I had a dream about him last night and in the back of my mind I kept thinking "but you died how are you here" just felt so bizarre
Don
I've had a really bad couple of days. Had to get my dad to come up from Devon to take care of me. I can't believe that I'm 41 and I still need my old man to sort me out when I'm in a mess. The Mrs is useless TBH as she's so focussed on her career she can't spare any time to deal with me and my crazy.
I'm sorry to hear that, man. Have you considered something like cognitive behavioural therapy? I'm not saying that is specifically what you need, but it may be a good starting point.
On a side note, I'm finding this site is running a bit slow at the mo...
Don
On the waiting list for CBT through talking therapies at the moment.
As hard as it is you need to get out a little, anything and anywhere.
Wow, I never knew this, you always seem to come across as level headed and sorted on here. Why are you in this situation? How does it affect you? If your wife doesn't have the time of day to listen and help, is it maybe worth considering finding someone who does?
Soldato
If you need anything, any time, let me know
It's about having a support network, my wife tries but just can't understand, she wants too, but takes me being down as an attack on her and our life together, which I completely understand. She really doesn't understand my borderline though.
Soldato
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Associate
Don't ever be ashamed about that. I feel the same in the mist of it when I require help from my mum when I'm nearly 35.
Don
Thanks guys. I'll be OK I'm sure. Just need to get the meds sorted properly (trying some new ones at the moment), and get the therapy started. I just joined Anxiety UK which gives me access to therapy at a reduced rate and also gets me a subscription to Headspace (meditation app).
I've struggled with anxiety, panic-attacks, and depression ever since 1999 when I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. Learning as a 23-year-old that I could be dead by 30 and that there was nothing I could do about it was very hard to swallow. I went in to a destructive spiral of focusing on earning ever more money and spending it on crap that I didn't need. Got in a lot of debt.
I then found out 2 years ago that I have Aspergers which explains a great many things.
I'm on the level now with most things but the anxiety is crippling.
I've struggled with anxiety, panic-attacks, and depression ever since 1999 when I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. Learning as a 23-year-old that I could be dead by 30 and that there was nothing I could do about it was very hard to swallow. I went in to a destructive spiral of focusing on earning ever more money and spending it on crap that I didn't need. Got in a lot of debt.
I then found out 2 years ago that I have Aspergers which explains a great many things.
I'm on the level now with most things but the anxiety is crippling.
Wow, would never have guessed. Crap situation to be, sorry to hear it. Sadly I'm not qualified / experienced to offer any useful help but you seem to be doing ok going by your posts. I'm a great ear to moan at (just ask my wife
) so feel free to give me a shout if you need a release. I'd say be strong but you seem to have a handle on that alread so I'll wish you god speed instead
Soldato
down to taking my meds every other day, forgot to take it for 3 days due to various issues so I only really missed one dose.
I've been home since 6:40 pm and I'm ready to either pack my car and leave, cut myself to watch the blood drain out or just cry uncontrollably.
I don't think it's just me, seems like my wife and daughter have been in **** moods this evening, daughter is 6 going on teenager and the wife just seems to pick at everything, calling me fat again. my 2 year old is my saviour so far but now he's in bed.
not felt this low since early summer when I was ready to end it. going to put my head in my work for a few hours, seems to focus me.
I've been home since 6:40 pm and I'm ready to either pack my car and leave, cut myself to watch the blood drain out or just cry uncontrollably.
I don't think it's just me, seems like my wife and daughter have been in **** moods this evening, daughter is 6 going on teenager and the wife just seems to pick at everything, calling me fat again. my 2 year old is my saviour so far but now he's in bed.
not felt this low since early summer when I was ready to end it. going to put my head in my work for a few hours, seems to focus me.
I sincerely hope you can draw on anything positive in your life, such as your two-year-old so that you don't go over the edge.
Caporegime
Seems a strange thing for your wife to call you fat knowing you have a mental health problem, doesn’t take a lot to push people over the edge.
Soooo, i think i have post traumatic stress disorder from a violent abusive relationship coupled with soft drug abuse and the sudden death of my mother.
I know if i tell my doctor my symptoms they'll just give me antidepressants again which make me feel sick and dismiss me.
If i go in and say, i think i have ptsd they'll just think im taking the ****.
It's like i already have serveer adhd, anxiety, panic attacks and never socialise or go out anymore so one more wont hurt.
I came to this conclusion as before the relationship, i'd be out with my friends all the time and a social butterfly. Now i'm non existent, avoid relationships, become extremely defensive when i suspect foul play or mistreatment. I trust no one. Getting close to anyone causes panic attacks.
plus ijogjoejgejrtjgrtyjryty
I know if i tell my doctor my symptoms they'll just give me antidepressants again which make me feel sick and dismiss me.
If i go in and say, i think i have ptsd they'll just think im taking the ****.
It's like i already have serveer adhd, anxiety, panic attacks and never socialise or go out anymore so one more wont hurt.
I came to this conclusion as before the relationship, i'd be out with my friends all the time and a social butterfly. Now i'm non existent, avoid relationships, become extremely defensive when i suspect foul play or mistreatment. I trust no one. Getting close to anyone causes panic attacks.
plus ijogjoejgejrtjgrtyjryty
Soldato
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Yep.