Yeah its definatly a roller coaster Moog, sometimes nothing has to change in life, we feel what we feel and we cant help it sometimes,ride the low and the highs will come back
I feel the same i was playing on the pc from 5 oclock this morning literally just come off playing dayz for 6 hours and i got a family to look after
certainly is mate but we must fight on. Been a bit better day today although I have a bit of a tension headache which I’m fighting off with caffeine....
I was playing Zelda at 6am this morning....
Don’t do anything silly mate, if you feel that you are cycling into a bad state, go to bed and stay there, try and sleep.
All good thank you got the thoughts but fighting it, got sad music in the gym crazy I know but pumping the iron and drinking loads of water, thanks for your consern, I have written down what I have felt and going to hand it to the doctor's before it goes to far much love dude
Loads of people happy for a chat including here on this forum. In all seriousness speak to a doctor and they will sort you out.
I by no means have any mental issues (as far as I know), but I often wonder of something is there deep down.
I'm crazy feeling down currently, happens every so often, lost our dog a few weeks back which hasn't helped, just feel like I'm trapped in the adult cycle - Get paid, try do things, struggle, get laid, repeat.
I'm having breathing issues lately which has stopped .e mentally doing things such as the gym, which just exasperates everything
Not really sure why I'm posting here, I hope everyone is doing well and has the support networks they need.
I recently watched this: https://youtu.be/XrM6WqYEj9Y Joe Rogan and Tyson Fury on Mental Health. I didn't really have much of a feeling about Tyson, but having watched this it's really relatable and can't help but feel so much more compassion for Tyson.
I am trying to push through a bit of crap today. I know exactly what I'm like and with some side projects that I've been busting a nut on, pretty much grinding to a halt, and having been pushing for an internal position where I'm currently contracting, I found out that the chances of this happening are so slim due to their internal processes.
These knocks consecutively really send me into a spiral. If I'm focussing on something and pushing on it, I'm great but when it all gets knocked back and I feel like I'm not in control of the situation or direction, I struggle. I'm a lot more conscious of this than I used to be, so know what I am like, but it's still hard to manage.
I've been really trying to regain my positivity and not let the cloud consume me. I've still been walking around with that knotted feeling in my stomach, like someone has just socked me one, regardless of what I keep trying to tell myself. I tried to talk to my wife and while she tries to be supportive, she then says I need to start doing more to get a job lined up, as we need me to have something for the family. This is like the worst pressure to chuck on top of me while I'm feeling right in the middle of all this. The anxiety just triples and I feel sick with pressure. I tried to explain this but she doesn't understand. She just says, oh so you don't want me to mention I'm concerned? Think she missed the point.
Anyway, just wanted to write something down. I'm putting my focus into some fitness, and going to change up a few things and try and pull myself out of this and not let it consume me.
Had a bit of a rough day today had to take a Diazepam which I have not needed for a while. Was up early feeling restless but really tired. It’s so depressing being unwell after a good few weeks of doing ok. I think the uncertainty of this illness is one of the worst parts. Will fight on and try and look forward to feeling good again.
Hope everyone is doing ok.....