Soldato
I don't want to write much because it's still so raw but my relationship ended on Saturday. Been together for three years but difficulties caused by our situations with kids and houses etc, along with differences in personalities, combined with a decline in my mental health that I hadn't identified, have all contributed to it becoming too hard for my partner and she doesn't see a why that it can work.
We've ben going through a bit of a rocky patch but we've always been able to talk about things and try to work on them but over time it's just become too hard and the negatives have outweighed the positives for her.
If I'm completely honest it has crossed my mind at times when things have been hard but the positives have been so good I'd like to try to continue trying to work through the difficult things together but sadly that doesn't seem to be an option anymore. I'm gutted and feel really sad.
I've got a doctors appointment later as I think a bit of time back on sertraline might be a good idea for me to help me pick myself back up, and I'll be seeing my counsellor on wednesday, having emailed her a list of the things I need to work on, some of which I guess I've been avoiding because they're been painful but I know I need to deal with them if I'm going to be happy in the long term, even if right now it's hard to feel positive about anything much, I feel so numb and lonely.
I've never been someone who has been able to make or keep friends very well and right now I'm really alone and have no one to talk to. My parents are really supportive and helpful with all of the practical stuff but the emotional stuff...well, we've never had that kind of relationship. Right now, the one person I most want to talk to in the world is the person who ended things and feels that right now we shouldn't communicate because our emotions are so raw.
I don't know what I hope to gain from this post, i guess I just wanted to get some of it out of my head.
It feels like you are shouldering a lot of blame here
Don't!
I did the same, also ended on sertraline after relationship breakdown, finally I got off it and I'm well over that phase / relationship now.
Believe me. Time fixes everything, I couldn't be in a better place now.
It took some life style changes but you'll get there.
Good on you for taking the steps to reach out