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Feeling pretty much down in my proverbial boots, have been friends with a lady for about 16 years, over the last year we have become very close, not boyfriend/girlfriend but a little more than just besties. She is good-looking, has a great job, intelligent and has just bought outright a half million £ house just for her and her cat. Sadly, I am none of the previous statements, aside from being able to hold a good conversation, live in what is basically a council flat and have a rapid cycling bipolar condition.
I don't get nasty or physically violent, but can go from high to low at a flick of a switch, and the lows can come across as very hurtful. Last weekend I emailed her explaining that it was probably best for her that we ease up, on what has become pretty much daily phone calls. She has even offered me a physical relationship, but my medication places limitations on that, not great for self-esteem, hence another reason for sending the email.
She did call me and I managed to keep it together for the phone call, and we agreed at the time that she would text me daily rather than call. When I get depressed, I can be a little OTT and keep contacting her almost to the point of being a nuisance, I am learning and have been much better at a little restraint this time.
Have come out of this bout of depression and thought about our relationship and sent her a long text explaining, although I don't mean to hurt her, it will keep happening with my condition. I know that it isn't fair to her for it to keep happening to such a nice person and took the step of blocking her from contacting me, it is far better she gets over me in one motion rather than occurring time and again.
Am not depressed, but pretty upset I have had to let go a huge part of my life.
I don't get nasty or physically violent, but can go from high to low at a flick of a switch, and the lows can come across as very hurtful. Last weekend I emailed her explaining that it was probably best for her that we ease up, on what has become pretty much daily phone calls. She has even offered me a physical relationship, but my medication places limitations on that, not great for self-esteem, hence another reason for sending the email.
She did call me and I managed to keep it together for the phone call, and we agreed at the time that she would text me daily rather than call. When I get depressed, I can be a little OTT and keep contacting her almost to the point of being a nuisance, I am learning and have been much better at a little restraint this time.
Have come out of this bout of depression and thought about our relationship and sent her a long text explaining, although I don't mean to hurt her, it will keep happening with my condition. I know that it isn't fair to her for it to keep happening to such a nice person and took the step of blocking her from contacting me, it is far better she gets over me in one motion rather than occurring time and again.
Am not depressed, but pretty upset I have had to let go a huge part of my life.
